Expressing Me

Today I woke up and wondered how did my life turn out to be way it is right now. I'm happily married, a devoted mother to my son, I have a secure roof over my head, and I've had the courage to put out to the whole world my tragedy as a child. I personally feel that its the lord of above who has blessed me with the strength to be where I am right now. For along time there I really did not think that I would be married or have a baby, because I did not know how my past would effect marriage and children. I was truly afraid that I would freak out, I never thought that I would be able to tell the man I loved and married my secret and not have him run away. He proved me wrong, he did not see me as a victim but a survivor, someone who's fought through her past to be the strong woman I am today.

I must admit that just recently I had finally sought some medical treatment, I noticed that after having my son that a lot of those old feelings came back and I started to become severely depressed.Hell it started before my son was born, during my pregnancy I was totally not the person that I am today. I was miserable.

Now I sit hear writing and I am finally okay with the world seeing my soul again. I am living to bring justice to something that a lot of people rarely talk about, I am here to bring light to the darkness.

I truly feel now at 28 that I am finally beginning to heal.

Disbelief

How can we as americans the land of the free, keep allowing this tragedy to happen. For a country who is supposed to be fighting for justice for all people young and old we sure do seem to be lacking in this departing as far as sex crimes against children go. How can a child molester or rapist only serve 5 years on a 10year sentence for example, or how do they not serve anytime for 40 year sentence. Somebody just tell me why does this happen in this country. At this rate victims will continue to be silent, especially if they feel that there is no justice.(Don't mind me I'm just venting)