Expressing Me

Today I woke up and wondered how did my life turn out to be way it is right now. I'm happily married, a devoted mother to my son, I have a secure roof over my head, and I've had the courage to put out to the whole world my tragedy as a child. I personally feel that its the lord of above who has blessed me with the strength to be where I am right now. For along time there I really did not think that I would be married or have a baby, because I did not know how my past would effect marriage and children. I was truly afraid that I would freak out, I never thought that I would be able to tell the man I loved and married my secret and not have him run away. He proved me wrong, he did not see me as a victim but a survivor, someone who's fought through her past to be the strong woman I am today.

I must admit that just recently I had finally sought some medical treatment, I noticed that after having my son that a lot of those old feelings came back and I started to become severely depressed.Hell it started before my son was born, during my pregnancy I was totally not the person that I am today. I was miserable.

Now I sit hear writing and I am finally okay with the world seeing my soul again. I am living to bring justice to something that a lot of people rarely talk about, I am here to bring light to the darkness.

I truly feel now at 28 that I am finally beginning to heal.