Thoughts

So yesterday at 300pm my time, I decided to watch Oprah and guess what the topic was child sex abuse. The last time I watched Oprah when she was talking about this subject was when I was 21 and I finally told my parents of my abuse. Yesterday was so mind boggling for me I can believe that there is a guide on the internet for how to molest a child, its so disgusting that these predators are so bold that they want to create a how to guide. I just can't believe that, it shakes me to the core of my being.

I know some have wondered how I am doing, I am taking things day-by-day like I have been since this happened to me as a child. For me I won't say that I am lucky, its more like I am blessed the life was token of the monster that did this to me when I was 16. It happened on Friday the 13th, to be honest with you it was the best day of my life, it was the first day that I did not even think of that bastard.It was funny I knew he was dead before anyone else did, I just had an overwhelming since of peace wash over me. He died by the hand of a bystander as he was trying to rob a bank. For me while he was alive I never ever got an apology, he never asked for forgiveness he just moved on with his life, he had kids and a fiance no one ever knew the predator that he was to me.

I can say that I am fine as a 28year old wife and mother of one, God gives me the strength to make it through. After all these years I did have to seek help by taking prozac to cope day by day, and my husband and son are another source of my strength. Blogging has truly been my salvation, I am finally able to express myself to the world and bring awareness to this horror.