Opening up my Soul

The statistics are shocking

1 in 4 girls is sexually abused before the age of 18.

1 in 6 boys is sexually abused before the age of 18.

1 in 5 children are solicited sexually while on the Internet.

Nearly 70% of all reported sexual assaults (including assaults on adults) occur to children ages 17 and under.

An estimated 39 million survivors of childhood sexual abuse exist in America today.

My story begins from when I was seven years old and ended around when I was 9 or ten years old. At that time as a kid I was told that its okay its what my mommy and daddy do all the time, that if I told my parents I would get in trouble, told that I needed to keep it a secret and that I was a big girl if I did. I did, Idid keep that secret even after my tomentor died, i didn't break our secret vow until I was 21 years old. So for years I walked around with my shameful secret while he got to live the life girlfriend, kids and all. Walking around as if he didn't have a care in the world.

Sexual abuse can occur at all ages, probably younger than you think

The median age for reported abuse is 9 years old.

More than 20% of children are sexually abused before the age of 8.

Nearly 50% of all victims of forcible sodomy, sexual assault with an object, and forcible fondling are children under 12.


My best friend and God were the only ones that knew what happened to me, and for my sake neither one looked at me like I was dirty or that I must have did something to deserve that. They never saw me as I had saw myself inside as a slut like in the videos I was forced to watch, no they never thought of me as that I could always escape to both of them when I was feeling closed in.

Most children don't tell even if they have been asked

Evidence that a child has been sexually abused is not always obvious, and many children do not report that they have been abused.

Over 30% of victims never disclose the experience to ANYONE.

Young victims may not recognize their victimization as sexual abuse.

Its funny my abuser went to his grave with that secret, and for me to this day I just feel like he got the easy way out he never had to face a judge, my parents, or anyone. The day he died was one of the best days of my life, I unsually happy all day for Friday the 13th I was at completely peace. I asked God that evening why am I so happy and he revealed to me my tomentors death, and in my mind that night praised God and said "Thank you" loudly in my mind. I've said everyday since then and I even said at his funeral.

Even within the walls of their own homes, children are at risk for sexual abuse

30-40% of victims are abused by a family member.

Another 50% are abused by someone outside of the family whom they know and trust.

Approximately 40% are abused by older or larger children whom they know.

Therefore, only 10% are abused by strangers

The sad thing is that this person was no stranger to me or my family, he was at my house almost every single day to check up on me when my mom either worked late or was at night school. It was usually right when we got home from school, as both our schools usually got out around the same time. He was the one that gave the scar that's in the middle of my forhead cause he was in such a rush to get to my house that he pushed the to hard right as I was opening it.


Teenage Pregnancy and Promiscuity

Children who have been victims of sexual abuse exhibit long-term and more frequent behavioral problems, particularly inappropriate sexual behaviors.

Women who report childhood rape are 3 times more likely to become pregnant before age 18.
An estimated 60% of teen first pregnancies are preceded by experiences of molestation, rape, or attempted rape. The average age of their offenders is 27 years.

Victims of child sexual abuse are more likely to be sexually promiscuous.

More than 75% of teenage prostitutes have been sexually abused.


For me even after his death, my abuser had marked a brand on me and that brand followed me into adulthood. Sex was the keyword for every single relationship that I had since I was 18
and for along time I didn't know how to tell the difference between real love and sex. Since I had been exposed to sex at such a young age I thought that it was love because that what my tormentor had showed me.